28th
March,2014
1:08
am
Karlsruhe
Till the Grief subsides and
appetite is full...
I drink its ardor and the never
ending depths...
Till the happiness ensues the
promise of an everlasting mirth...
Dissolved in time...
Meddled with the mind....
Till the Poetry surges in the
Poet's mind....
Till everything becomes
omnipresent...
And INFINITE....!!
Well…seven
months have passed…now its time to go back, as I was packing my things and
cleaning my room, because the ‘Hausmeister’ is going to come for inspection,
the first thing tomorrow morning. As I was clearing up my things, I felt a bump
in my chest and a strange numbness in my heart. It wasn’t anxiety, or fear, or
anything else. But it was nostalgia, the strange feeling which strikes you when
you leave a place after 7 months.
A
piece of my heart will be left here, in this city, among the people I met, the
university, my accommodation , and all those exhausting but great Trips to
various places all over Germany and Europe.
This
is the place which made me stronger as a person and lead me on a road to
self-discovery, and I realized that quitting my high-paying corporate job 2
years ago wasn’t such a bad idea at all. For it opened up my mind and made me
free from chains of corporate slavery.
This
is where I learnt how to be actually independent, how to cook and how to
appreciate food and the energy it gives. And how terribly difficult and easy it
is…hehe..
This
is the room where I worked on my thesis, edited so many beautiful photographs,
skyped with people who are far away from me this time, yet those who will be
close to me in just 3 days, I have learnt to appreciate friendship and the joy
of a cup of coffee with a friend instead of a lavish meal in a restaurant or a
great trip to Paris.
I
learnt how to say “Danke” and “bitte” for small and trivial things which we do
day to day…
This
is the bed where I lay helpless after my first migraine attack in Germany, and
realized how my mother used to massage my head till 2am in the morning when I used
to get terrible headaches, and how I kept myself awake till 4am in the morning,
so I can give a call when its morning in India and before my parents leave for
work.
And
this is the place where I was on my own, to face everything, and to accept
whatever comes.
Karlsruhe
has given me so many good moments that it is difficult not to feel a heart-ache
when I bid goodbye to this place. I am surely going to miss the old world charm
of this place.
Its
strange, how cities change with seasons, and how the colors transform
themselves into a pool of memories.
When
I left Auroville,last summer, I had the
same stinging feeling in my heart,and it had been just 2 months, because the
truth is, you never know if you will be visiting that city or that place again
in your life and this might be the last time you actually see this place.
I soaked in as much possible in my mind. Karlsruhe
will always be etched in my mind and heart, and I have two more days to soak in
as much as I can.
“And
here you come with a cup of tea,
Wreathed
in steam, the blood jet is poetry,
There
is no stopping it.”
I
will always have mixed feelings for Karlsruhe, but surely I will miss it.
As
I look around myself now,all I can see is a spotless room and my packed
luggage, and I am all ready to leave on a new journey… back to my homeland, to
my people, to my friends.
It
was true when they said that “All good things come to an end” !!
Only
to give way for new good things which are coming on the way….!!
“The
woods are lovely dark and deep,
But
I have promises to keep
And
miles to go before I sleep…and miles to go before I sleep.”
Danke schön! ! tschüss :) :)
Danke schön! ! tschüss :) :)
